THE TOOLBOX

I thought the first blog post I wrote would be filled with lots of humor or even something with a little “shock and awe”… like the time I dated a big time drug dealer. Or the first time I experienced the supernatural realm. Or the time I was put in handcuffs by South Beach Police. Or the time when... well you get the picture. And honestly, those stories and thoughts are coming. However, that wouldn’t speak to the true heart of what this space is about. 

I developed The Toolbox because I found myself in a repetitive hamster wheel of life- overwhelming and unforgiving cycles of disappointment, inspiration, insecurity, hope and confusion. I found that my inability to find peace in the midst of inevitable change created a lot of discontentment. Frankly,  that's no way to live. I believe a lot of us survive this way.

Me personally? I left my previous career, got engaged, started a new career, Covid hit, my grandpa died, I got married, I got pregnant, moved, & then gave birth to a daughter… all within 3 years. Ya girl has been ON ONE.

We’re on social media posting the peaks of the mountains... and scurrying away when we’re in the valleys. Some of us have the courage to broadcast our darkest moments, but the world around us can be full of disinterested & desensitized souls. Most people come to the “innannet” for makeup tutorials and the latest celebrity gossip… so they’ll impatiently step over a cracked heart on the pavement. Some of us are unplugged from the online pressures. Unfortunately, society’s apathy has spilled out and leaked into the real world- slowly eroding our compassion and human decency. Quite frankly, no one can escape it. 

I know that may sound bleak. I won’t even pretend to have all of the answers. What I can say is that I started doing some work with God to get to the bottom of my discontentment. I’ve been talking to friends and women who feel the same- that life (and the pandemic) did a NUMBER on them and it’s been hard to get their footing. For me, there were areas of my life that were not congruent with the reality of the God I serve. I believe He’s downloading ways to grow in our true identity to that we can ultimately point people back to Him. 

Honestly, the work can be grueling and it calls for sacrifice, introspection and conviction. It means wringing out your heart to see what’s there- the good and the bad. Some of the work is inspiring and beautiful. Either way, I’m just glad that you’re here for the ride. Welcome to The Toolbox.