THOSE WHO HAVE EYES.

I can't tell you how many times I've gone into the "secret place" with God and asked for supernatural vision for what's to come. In the same way, I lose count of the amount of times I get (what feels like) marching orders, take one step, and crumble under the pressure of the unknown. "Am I making a mistake?" "I can't afford another failure or disappointment." "Did I really hear God like I think I did?" It's embarrassing to admit, but I am constantly running back into prayer asking God for another glimpse into my "next".

This dilemna highlights two, paramount issues. Number 1) It highlights my pride and self-sufficiency. The humility it takes to walk out God’s instructions is critical- In fact, God tells us that we cannot separate from the ultimate vine (John 15:5). We have to remain dependent on his DAILY bread and his NEW mercies (Mt 6:10). My pride convinces my brain that I don’t need God as much as I do. So, I take steps on my own and fall part when my insecurities, flesh and pressures get the best of me.

Number 2) I was constantly praying for vision, but perhaps what I should’ve been praying for was HOPE. Afterall, if faith is “the assurance of things hoped for, the evidence of things NOT seen” (Hebrews 11:1)… why am I focused on what I see? What good is sight if I don’t have the hope that it will come to pass? What good is sight if I don’t hope in the God who showed it to me?

One of my biggest fears is that I will not have the character to hold the things that God wants to give me. I want to steward it well. I pray that God does a good work IN us first, as we pursue the things that build His kingdom.